Being Fearless

Doesn't it seem that the happiest people live their lives in a fearless way?  They're confident in their decisions, true to their own wants and needs and make no apologies for their choices.  I think it takes a lot of courage to just put your whole self out there, mistakes and all, and see what happens.  This world doesn't make it easy to live that way.  There are always those who are judging and forcing their opinions and criticism on others.  Over the last year I've come to the conclusion there is no better way to live, though.  This is my resolution for 2015 - I'm just going to be fearless.  I'm going to worry less about what others think and just do what makes me happy. 

Our New Home

In two days, the kiddos and I are moving into our new home! 

We are so excited to start the next chapter in our lives....it's been a rough couple of years and it's so great to finally get past a lot of the sadness and confusion that comes with divorce and move to happier times! 

Here's to good times and great memories to be made in our new home!

They're leaving on a jet plane...

....without me.  Marc is taking the kids on their first airplane ride to his brother's wedding in San Francisco this week.  I'm excited for them - they are going to have a great time!  But, I am sad that I won't be there with them for this big adventure.  And I'm sad that I won't see them for FOUR DAYS.  I have made some plans to fill the time, and I am sure I will have fun with my goofiest girlfriend, Michelle.  But, this sucks.  I guess it's one of the divorce realities that I just can't get my head around....missing firsts with my kids. 

My kids want to talk about their excitement about the big weekend....so I try really hard to just stuff my sadness and be excited with them.  I guess today it was just too much.  I've been dreading this coming weekend for months...and the closer it gets, the more awful it feels. 

What a week!

This is gonna be a long post!

This last week started out with Miss Megan turning 10 on Tuesday....yes, double digits!  She has grown into such an amazing person...inside and out.  I know I just posted this photo recently, but it's one of my favorites.  To celebrate Megan's birthday, we took her to dinner at Applebee's and they sang Happy Birthday do her...she was thrilled and a little embarassed. 

On Wednesday night we had dinner at our friends' house....Michelle and her kiddos, John and Samantha, are great friends to us and we always have a good time together!  They have been such an amazing support to my kids and I over the last year - I honestly have no  idea what we would have done without them!

Thursday night was taco night at Aunt Katy's and then Friday evening was spent with Michelle, John and Samantha at the Hruska's house (Rudy, Doris, Jasmine and Jesse)....I just couldn't ask for a better bunch of friends!

And then there was Saturday... Saturday morning I rushed from store to store gathering snacks and drinks for Megan's birthday pool party!  We had 22 kids and at least 10 adults at the pool on Saturday afternoon....and it was a fantastic party!  It was 90 degrees, the pool was nice and cool and the kids had a great time!  Despite the inevitable exhaustion after spending the afternoon at the pool, the Hruskas joined us at Michelle's house for an evening barbeque.  I put my kids in bed at 10:00 and I'm pretty sure they were asleep by 10:01! 

Today we went to church and then the spent the afternoon at the pool - it was fun, but I am pooped!  In fact, I am so tired that I think I will wait to post pictures from all of these happenings tomorrow!

This week will be spent preparing for the first day of school next week - Megan is going to visit my hairdresser and we still have to buy school supplies!  I'm actually looking forward to the routine and early bedtimes that come with the school year schedule!

A Fun Day

Today the kiddos and I went to a Wild West Fest at the historic Kleffner Ranch....and then we grabbed A&W cheeseburgers and rootbeer and had a picnic on Little Prickly Pear Creek up the road from the ranch.  They were thrilled to spend time with Grandpa and Grandma and Aunt Katy and their cousins.  It was a beautiful day and we had so much fun!

Baseball 2012

As I mentioned in my last post, Kellan and Jacksen had a great baseball season!  Kellan had a some great coaches and it is amazing how much his game improved in just 6 short weeks.  At the beginning of the season he usually ended up hitting the ball off the tee, but by the end of the season he was almost always able to hit the machine pitch.  I am so proud of my boys!

Jacksen on the pitcher's mound



Kellan bugging his daddy during Jacksen's game

Megan discovered "spits" while watching her brothers' games

We have about a month off from sports until fall soccer and flag football begin....I wonder what we will do with all of that time on our hands?!



My Sweethearts

 Megan

 Kellan

Jacksen